Andrew's Practice Thread
- Seekr
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12 years 8 months ago #90400
by Seekr
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1/3/13 2x 1h
1/4/13 2x 1h vn
1/5/12 45m vn
1/6/13 15m ping pong vn
1/7/13 1h
1/8/13 2h
1/9/13 2 x 1h
1/10/13 12x 1h vn + 10m ping pong noting
1/13/12 55m vn
1/14/13 1h vn + 1h (30m vn/ 30m silent noting)
1/15/13 45m vn
1/16/13 15m sn, 2x 1h vn
1/17/13 45m vn + 1h vn
Momentum momentum momentum.
Building up head of steam before retreat. Energy is there. Striving is there. Sometimes too much striving + judgement. Noted.
Sits usually start out with slight writh'y/shaky movements, pleasant peripheral sensations. Today there was motivation, striving, calm, automatic noting. There were Scenario thoughts, image thoughts interspersed with doubt and self judgement. Occasional absorbtive sensations, starting with pressure on top of head and sometimes culminating at 3rd eye place with strong pleasant pressure, pulling the eyes in. Sometimes there is a slight peripheral bliss wave. Body wants to wave and rock with it, to go deeper into the pleasant sensations/increase their intensity.
There was mapping thougths, judgement thoughts, confusion, analyzing thoughts. There was desire for deliverance. At end of sits there was some relaxation, but mind yearns for that quiet, chilled out, equinimity territory. There was some dullness and boredom, quickly followed by pleasant scenario thoughts. Hard to notice the subtle shift when the mind says "aha, energy, lets fantasize". Hard to discern the dullness and boredom. Sometimes it (doubt/boredom) is accompanied by heaviness in chest, other times it is quite calm and there is very little tension in the body.
Sometimes the chilled out calm changes into coarse, pleasant vibrations, then there's usually aversion to the vibration, accompanied by analyzing thought and judgement, and a pull to get back to the chilled out territory. Judgement.
Keeping on keeping on.Metta.
1/4/13 2x 1h vn
1/5/12 45m vn
1/6/13 15m ping pong vn
1/7/13 1h
1/8/13 2h
1/9/13 2 x 1h
1/10/13 12x 1h vn + 10m ping pong noting
1/13/12 55m vn
1/14/13 1h vn + 1h (30m vn/ 30m silent noting)
1/15/13 45m vn
1/16/13 15m sn, 2x 1h vn
1/17/13 45m vn + 1h vn
Momentum momentum momentum.
Building up head of steam before retreat. Energy is there. Striving is there. Sometimes too much striving + judgement. Noted.
Sits usually start out with slight writh'y/shaky movements, pleasant peripheral sensations. Today there was motivation, striving, calm, automatic noting. There were Scenario thoughts, image thoughts interspersed with doubt and self judgement. Occasional absorbtive sensations, starting with pressure on top of head and sometimes culminating at 3rd eye place with strong pleasant pressure, pulling the eyes in. Sometimes there is a slight peripheral bliss wave. Body wants to wave and rock with it, to go deeper into the pleasant sensations/increase their intensity.
There was mapping thougths, judgement thoughts, confusion, analyzing thoughts. There was desire for deliverance. At end of sits there was some relaxation, but mind yearns for that quiet, chilled out, equinimity territory. There was some dullness and boredom, quickly followed by pleasant scenario thoughts. Hard to notice the subtle shift when the mind says "aha, energy, lets fantasize". Hard to discern the dullness and boredom. Sometimes it (doubt/boredom) is accompanied by heaviness in chest, other times it is quite calm and there is very little tension in the body.
Sometimes the chilled out calm changes into coarse, pleasant vibrations, then there's usually aversion to the vibration, accompanied by analyzing thought and judgement, and a pull to get back to the chilled out territory. Judgement.
Keeping on keeping on.Metta.