Charlie Tart, telling it like it is

http://blog.paradigm-sys.com/archives/606

"My inability to not get carried away like this was what led me to the
conclusion years ago that whatever special talent it took to be a
meditator, I didn't have it, so I pretty much gave up attempts at formal
meditation. As I've lately expressed it, "meditation" always seemed to
mean "First quiet your mind and then….." and I could never get to the
"and then…." part. [Fortunately I also discovered Gurdjieffian
self-remembering around this time which worked very well for me, so my
personal mindfulness life did not come to a standstill, but that's
another story.]"

I am really fond, these days, of what I might call 'ragged reality'-- people admitting that they aren't on top of everything and a great success in all their endeavors. It gives me access to their experience-- and new access to my own. Out in that field that Rumi wrote about, beyond wrongdoing and rightdoing.