Why I don't "feel" enlightened from the vipassana "progress of insight" perspective even though I have "stream entry"

Shargrol, yeah, there is a period (Jackson might also jump in and agree) in which one feels ill at ease, uncertain and.... just kind of lost. I recall this period very clearly but without fondness, to say the least. "What the hell am I doing?" was the general feeling. It was as if the path itself was testing my resolve. "Are you really going to do this?" it would ask. "You bet!" was my reply. So I just kept on keeping on. It passed eventually, thank goodness.

-cmarti

Interesting, I think I've been through that... maybe more extended and less intense. I do feel like I'm in a limbo where I can hangout forever or I can "decide" to keep going. Actually, what is being decided is not to keep going (in terms of more effort) but more about what my preference is: to keep existing in the world of thinking/planning or to recognize the reality of a more immediate now (and the contraction/pain and joy/wonder of it). Practice doesn't seem to have much traction these days, doesn't seem so mechanical. Time put in doesn't equal new territory experienced. Off the cushion, the witness stage is showing up much more frequently, becoming more and more normal.

Anyway, I only posted about my stuff because it seemed related to the idea of having stream entry but not feeling enlightened. Hope it helps.

... there is a period (Jackson might also jump in and agree) in which one feels ill at ease, uncertain and.... just kind of lost.

-cmarti

Yes, I agree. I'm always pleasantly surprise at how well you (Chris) can say something as important as this in so few words, without gunking it up with model-speek